It's Official: I hate my father

I don't like talking about my personal life online. It makes me look like an attention whore, but I just can't deal with it anymore. If read some of my previous journals or if you know pretty well on dA, you probably know I have......daddy issues. I always thought one day I would reconcile with him for all wrongs he has done, after all the women in my family have managed to do it, why can't I? Well this is the straw that broke the camel's back. My father is suing my mother for custody rights for my sister(It also says for me, but I'm 18 now so I don't count). How is this bad? Well my father take my sister to live in Detroit with him and if your not American Detroit is actually one of the most dangerous cities in the US, it was known for it's car industry and motown records which recorded famous artists, which made a nice place to live at the time, but after it's decline, it became a real shithole. And if that's not bad enough my father doesn't contribute anything to our lives. He may call here and there, but he doesn't pay for child support, tuition, groceries, activities, etc. You get the gist. -___- And yet he still believes he's a great father! My mother can't deal with this shit! She has help me and my sister with applications for high school and college, she needs to buy a new car, she needs to renew her medical license, and she is very sick at the moment! She has a brain aneurysm and she needs surgery to remove in December. She doesn't need the extra stress. My sister feels the most worst about this. This was a man she used to look up to, who now is treating her like some item in an auction. We tried to talk to him,(well I yelled at him with extreme anger) but he wouldn't listen to reason. He is so stubborn and cocky that he thinks he will win this. Well I got news for him, he will lose and what little respect for him I have is gone. I hate that bastard. I hate what he has become. I don't care if he dies. Hell it'll make no difference and maybe a little easier. He is nothing more than a selfish, narcissistic ,manipulative hypocritical alcoholic boar. Who is so delusional that he has lost all touch with reality. I hate my father. I will never forgive my father not even to my dying breath. I usually don't hold grudges, but I can make an exception. I hate him very much. He was useful when I was younger, but he wasn't there for me when in my teenage years. He wasn't there for me when my best friend died, he wasn't there for me when my grandmother died(infact he got so drunk that they had to kick him out of the funeral) He barely was there for me. So why should I be there for him? He is dead to me. Look I may not be religious anymore (spiritual theist) but I ask for your prayers. I do. Because my family really needs them.Court date is Oct. 3.I hope he goes through the same suffering put my family through.